This week has been weird.
Work has been weird because I entered this twilight phase my my cake decorating carreer and I just don’t give a shit. I literally just stopped doing stuff they tell me to, and I’m waiting to see when someone says something to me.
M has been weird because we’re long distance and it is unbearable to me. I get so mad at him sometimes, and it’s relly unfair. Its mostly when the daily things he does get interrupted, like, he hasn’t been able to call when he leaves like he does every day, or he has extra homework that makes him really need to me shut the hell up and stop texting.
I honestly don’t know how people make long distance relationships survive. I love M and he brings me a lot of joy, but the misery is only barely worth it- and only cus I’m flying to see him in a week and eventually moving to him (that one is still freaking me out a bit). It’s really strange to really want something but to be utterly horrified of it at the same time.